The last time I wrote a journal was in 2010. Two months ago I started drawing again.
I expected my style and drawing to deteriorate in 6 years. I had no motivation to pursue my drawing. I was wrong. With every sketches and painting it became better. I'm still practicing and enjoying what I do. I have never taken a painting to the final stage. In the last 2months, I finished 6 paintings and more waiting to be done. To me it means a lot. My anxiety had gotten worse and I couldn't get anything past the sketch stage. My anxiety is still there and strong but even when happy or sad I'm pushing myself to draw something. I'm working with reference and watch process videos in order to help myself feel less loss when working on a painting. My anatomy is getting better and I'm practicing what I find too loose so I can improve speed.
What has helped me with my anxiety and getting things done was to stream and listen to engaging music. Listening to slow music would make my anxiety higher as it gave room to second guess myself. It's awesome to read chat messages and chat while working. I stream at random hours but if you want, come check me out @ twitch.tv/mariestertv. Hoping to see some of you guys there!
I still remember my friends from many years ago. Most of them, sadly, aren't active anymore but those that still are, I hope you're all doing great.
I am open to trade or requests so I can work on different things and improve. Simply send me a note about it.
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Have a good day!